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adashulaz · 6 months ago

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Soulmate au but Shiro and Ulaz are soulmates but Shiro is with Adam.

Adam doesn't have a soulmate, he has no red string of fate but Shiro does. However Shiro doesn't care and ends up getting with Adam and they end up engaged. This au still follows the canon so Shiro ends on the mission and yada yada.

Shiro and Ulaz meet again when Ulaz breaks onto the castle. This is where Shiro realizes that they're soulmates. So instead of Ulaz dying, he lives and stays with the Paladins. Shiro ends up in a dilemma because Ulaz is both sweet and attractive but he still loves Adam.

Cue ✨️poly✨️ stuff

Now, it's not something that happened quickly because one, Adam is incredibly confused and two, because Ulaz is also incredibly confused. Shiro is just praying it works out. It does but that doesn't stop a week or two worth of confusion. Adam is just confused as to how an alien is Shiros soulmate, especially an alien that might be a few thousand years old. Ulaz is just confused by how Shiro is Keith's brother but Adam is Keith's parent even though Adam is younger than Shiro by a year or two.

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xxcrumbxx · 2 months ago

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Hello hello soo um im still workin on it ,ive been kinda burnt out from it an ik thers no real preshure and im wayyy past valintinse day but heres a wip of those silly lil valintines cards

Also today is my birth day im 22 now so .. Thats a thing. Anyway im planing on making like 3 alternet vershions of eclips 1 with the cannon tipical 2 arm pre decomishion desighn 1 with the 4 armed fannon /cannon design and 1 with the 4 armed ballone world desighn. Probly ganna take a bit but what ever it will be valintine in fuckin may who cares lol

#fnaf fanart #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf moon #fnaf sun #moondrop #fnaf eclipse #I shoulda went to bed sooner i acctuly have plans today ill be fine witj an houer of sleep hopefully i dont ruin my own party by being a #Insomneac #fuck im just waistin time i need to sleep but i could also stay up and just party rockers in the house to night my way threw #Im prett good at it but also my brain hit anouther developmental phase and o know ill probly sleep for 15 houers or more affter i finaly #Crash an i sapose to drink with my friend an have a lil party with them tonight #Fuck this is the most eventfull b day ive ever had hopefully i dont cry like i do every year idk why but i always cray on my birth day and #Cristmas #Lol why ru still reading this are you curious #Well hello there you silly fool im suprised anyone would make it down here like tbh i dont even think someone would even check the tags let #Alone read this far tbh im so confadent i think ill dox my self for fun #Are you redy im ganna do it #Get out a pen an paper okay #So here we go #I live in #Hahhahah bro why are u still fuckin here #I cant even spell oh shit fuck im a wizzerd now yah see that i turnd in to a spell casting wizzerd and youre just sitting there probly on #The toilet or a train or summin reading the tags on this nouthing burger of a post #Well any way its gettin late or early man idk its like 3:37 am and im tiyping this out #I gess were in the same bord borderline puthetic bote ?? Ship what ever fuck off i alredy said im a damb wizzerd in this hoe ?? That right #I said some fuckin who how whoe ? Like dude. Wtf anyyway fr fr i got milk thats been sitting on my night stand for maby an houer idk #I cant feel time anymore affter ... THE HORRORS #Anyway agin im acctuly ganna leave now have fun stay safe and uh thanks i gess for sticking arround have a lovely day and umm yah #So uh real quick why did u stay so long fr fr was it bc i was edging u with the whole doxing my self thing bc that was a joke tho i do get #The urge to so.e times .. Fuck im doin it agin

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deoidesign · 8 months ago

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Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!

Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!

Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.

I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!

#im so frustrated that banner has been gone #and people think the comic is over because of that #which is reasonable to think #but it... idk #its already an uphill battle to try snd retain audience after a hiatus this long #let alone when webtoon is actively building thr expectation that theres no need to come back...#im so frustrated #every day there is something new with them its so exhausting #this isnt even the thing I've been majorly stressed about this is a fresh new frustration #i feel like they're not just being unhelpful #at this point i feel like theyre actively sabotaging my career.#im not allowed to promote my books #i can't make my links too big so no one can find me #people dont even know i have a patreon #i can't make any announcements on the comic #and now people think th whole thing is over and it isnt!#im so ;_;#im so frustrated and demoralized #and people complete reasonably are losing patience and interest #and. ah... it's fine. like genuinely it is fine.#it will come back soon and i am doing a good job #and everyone who sees it's back will be happy with what ive done #cause it's good. its really good...#but. yeah. idk. webtoon has been actively keeping me down since the beginning and im so over them #I've been so mistreated aysudjejjdjdjdj #i just want to finish the series and go ;_;#taking all my power to not **** ******#just gotta power through and get the fuck out #text post #update

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t1oui · 12 days ago

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jercy except they're awkward asf and take actual years to get together. and i mean "awkward" as in "oblivious" and "oblivious" as in "everybody knows they like each other and they know they like each other but they don't know their feelings are reciprocated even though they're obvious asf".

and when i say everyone knows they like each other, i mean everyone, including people who couldn't possibly see percy and/or jason as anything but straight (cough cough my mortal pjo ocs cough cough). like these two are so obvious people are just changing their worldviews and dismantling stereotypes and biases

i'm just imagining percy going to college in new rome and jason, who has moved to camp half-blood full time, randomly deciding he also lives in new rome now and just... hanging around all the time. and breaking into percy's dorm.

don't even get me started on the blushing... oh my god. like how can you blush that much and watch someone blush that much and still not realize they like you back. annabeth can't figure out the answer yet here percy and jason are, doing exactly that

jason who draws percy whenever he gets tired of drawing blueprints for temples but still wants something to do

percy who gushes about jason to anybody who'll listen (cough cough my mortal pjo oc who he's closest with especially now that annabeth and nico refuse to listen to his queer rambling anymore cough cough)

jason iris messaging piper to gush about percy and her being homophobic towards him (i support her rights and her wrongs)

jercy being so adorable and in love when they finally get together that their friends can't even make fun of them (except for nico, who could not care less and is still a little salty that percy turned out to be queer the whole time)

#this is all w my hc that jason does online high school after hoo btw #bc screw him being alone in boarding school while everyone else is living their best life #and then he goes and fucking dies?? NO #justice for my boy!!!!!#*deep inhale*#sorry. i got a little emotional there. actual tags now #jercy #romantic jercy #because half the time i go to the jercy tag it's all jercy bromance which is fine but also #MAKE THEM KISS COWARDS #MWAH MWAH #YOU KNOW THEY WANT TO #*deep inhale #2*#im still feeling emotional sorry #jason grace #percy jackson #annabeth chase #piper mclean #nico di angelo #jason grace x percy jackson #percy jackson x jason grace #lindsey & ajax & craig #< the mortal ocs #juuuust in case yall were wondering and juuuuuuust in case i post about them again #i mean... would you guys want to hear about them?? 🥺👉👈#jason x percy #percy x jason

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moeblob · 2 months ago

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The extremely niche crossover only I want to see... Kingdom Hearts x Monark.

#kingdom hearts #monark #riku #vanitas #if you do not know about the game the mc in monark is some white haired guy #and you get this lil black stuffed rabbit with a yellow button eye but hes missing one eye #and his name is literally vanitas #so yeah sorry that i wanted to play kh2 and got DENIED bc cloud gaming isnt good #so i started playing monark as like well i own it but have never played it may as well #and get dunked on by vanitas real fast is like oh you lil -#and then the white haired guys first ally is a cute lil red haired girl that made me think of kairi a bit ???#and you may be asking well ok but thats not reaally enough to have a niche crossover spawn in your brain #ok the dean lady is named sora thank you case closed i just wanted to play kh2 and was made to do something else #ive played it for like five hours and have been SHAMED by vanitas for being too asexual during the lust quiz thank you kindly #and that actually is what his dialogue bubble is from!#his dialogue is like you know for a quiz to test your lust you have like NO carnal desires huh #and then i get no points added to my lust rank and then 120 added to sloth #also when he says hes not judging you its in the most judging tone #vanitas as a lil floating mascot with bunny ears as i alone deserve #anyway hi im salmon and i like chess themes and seven deadly sin themes and conveniently #monark has both ! hooray once again for me alone #also there are personality quizzes which are also things i like to take for no real reason its fine

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ganondoodle · 6 months ago

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just because i need to yell about it for a second bc i have seen people celebrate it, the nintendo music app thing as part of switch online to me looks much more like a dark precursor to a possible reality in which not only movies and series are completely locked behind a hundred different streaming services but music is as well ...

#ganondoodles talks #nintendo #like especially if that is the reason why they have been taking down so much music on youtube #can you imagine no music being on youtube at all anymore bc you need to sub to an obscure streaming service just to lsiten to that one trac #like if it was just a bonus i guess its fine #but this is capitalisms hell of streaming services where you rent shit without ever owning it #so im ....... >_>#ALSO I HATE APPS #WHY IS EVERYTHIGN AN APP #LEAVE ME ALONE

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stupidrant · 7 months ago

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Since we’re on the topic of video games, im tired of these fucking remakes. Ive said it before but i’ll say it again each time. These companies dont wanna invest in an actually good remaster or port and would rather waste their time with these remakes bcuz “ooh look how shiny and better the graphics look!!1!1!1” often times it has an empty feeling because everything has to be ultra realism super 6000. Its gotten so bad that now regular gamers are starting to gaslight you into playing or enjoying them. So much has been lost artistically, (like the cool UI designs) that it’s now considered “juvenile” and that i need to “grow up” and “accept it” 😂

#Being genuine and having atmosphere/lore/small details surrounding the game does a lot more.#And can we pls have built in emulators or #backwards combatibility on these newer consoles? if ur able to do all this other shit you can give us an official emulator #And ik that sometimes the developers have actually lost certain files data assets etc within the OG games that cannot be regained #But you can make an entire remake no problem🙄 it be feeling like they are getting told by higher ups “do it or else”#Im gen z and idk if its my gen or a combination of everyone regardless of age wanting these remakes all of a sudden #Bcuz i swear i remember most ppl disliked or didnt care abt them now everyone is on board with it???#No game after the year 1999 should have a remake. A rerelease or remaster is fine. But a remake? Do we really need that…#Also game design used to be cute and fun. Whatever happened to that? Wheres my clever save spots and menu screens?#Theres only a tad bit of remakes i have no problem with and even then its not “needed”#i also understand not liking smth due to its art style. But to act like majority of old games looks terrible is crazy come on now.#Why does h0rizon need a remaster and why are u not allowed to buy or download the OG version of it anymore 😐#feels like ppl think OG games are nothing when they are the entire reason #The amplified hyperrealistic my-26k-ultra-supercomputer-made-this remake exists in the first fucking place #regarding limitations of old games and consoles i could understand a rerelease port but they could just add on stuff and leave it alone lol #Emulators also exists guys….#Rant #Other

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godsfavoritescientist · 7 months ago

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you ever think about how bill is who the pines could have been if they didn't have any kind of support from anyone in their lives

#godsrambles #im thinking about the thing on the website where he goes on an angry jealous rant about stan #bill turns away from the chance to be better over and over and over and over again #but what couldve happened if he had some kind of support at 30? at 60? instead of at over 1 trillion?#he turns himself into a monster. he sets everything up to try and lead someone down the path of becoming a monster with him.#not consciously. but subconsciously he is so ready to commiserate with someone else about being monsters together. and be less alone in it #and then bill finds out that this person actually has a family member willing to risk the apocalypse just to bring him back.#and other family members willing to do whatever it takes to rescue him During the Apocalypse Itself #and friends who forgive him. and then even the brother he thought he hated for so long gets a happy ending #and here bill is. in a pit dug by his own endless atrocities. but the very first few shovelfuls of dirt that started digging the pit #were caused by him having no one. no support network. no family member willing to cause the apocalypse just to bring him back #and then he gets fucking institutionalized.#one of the kinds of places where people unwanted by anyone in society get sent to so no one has to think about them again.#^greatly reductive descriptor that isnt always true im just talking about the way society views this topic + depicts it in media #like ok. ok i guess. sure. whatever. fine. im exploding everything in the universe with my mind 👍

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aldisobey · 3 months ago

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Why is writing so hard lol

Wish it could be faster but forcing the feeling is impossible. Begin with musical ritual. Scrolling walls of artful halls. Masticating prose. Sink and dwell and rot with a feeling caught.

And then a different part of the story retches to page. Like prepping a body for possession. Sometimes a spirit you didn’t expect comes calling with an embrace you can’t escape.

I wish the process was outline, drafts, edit, and edit, edit, edit, edit, etc. But I need to check the moon the bugs the wide space of tide

drown my pretentious ass and toss me out to sea

It needs to be real and alive within, burgeoning to escape before I can excise a word.

I don’t think I’d like it easy

#for real though what are your tips and tricks #writing #what does it feel like for you folks what is your process #I’m being flowery but basically it’s music reading and art and thinking and weed here lol #HOW DO YOU WRITE #like does this ring true to anyone else because it’s a whole ass feel for me #ignore this for real I love my process and product but I have a whole ass story I want to write #and the peas are starting to bloom but I need the fucking potatoes now and wtf I watered there is that vine dead?#I know I’m not alone in this and trying to catch that feeling in so much word #time to see if I can call down a specter of sucking tongue we need love in this world #it’s the alien chest burster scene folks the story within a beautiful creature coming forth from blood of gut and I’m delighted it’s free #stitch me back up and I’m running out to face plant into a new egg #give me tools for a normal process lol or is this the process no one irl I know writes #the musical ritual is Under Giant Trees followed by a Disturbia jumpscare I love it shuffle the list #and the artful halls are your delightful blogs that prose I’m chewing is ao3 life is good looool #FLOW that’s what it is trying to invoke flow is impossible all the time #gotta train my inner spirit of determination to power through #IGNORE THIS IM FINE AND LOVE IT ALL #I WOULD VER MUCH LIKE IT EASY SOMETIMES

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splanana-bitz · 7 months ago

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*scrolling through tumblr and sees immaculate, mouth-watering art*

"Wow!"

*it's of a toxic couple back when they were together/them being bitter exes in present time*

"Oh, these two aren't healthy in any way, shape, or form"

...

*likes it anyway*

(Read tags)

#im specifically talking about billford #like....bill is more toxic than xenomorph drool #and a crazy motherfucker #and i agree with mabel in that one page of tbob #bill needs to move tf on and leave that poor old geezer alone #dude manipulated ford so much its not even cute or funny #but the art i keep seeing of these 2....jesus christ #yall are too talented #i hate the idea of canon ford and bill getting back together but i love the bill au ideas and seeing memes of bill being clingy #and the art #oml the art #the way some of y'all be drawing ford is giving me gender envy ffs #i dont particularly ship billford for obvious reasons #but bill acting like a petty and clingy ex is so funny to me + the “fell first/fell harder” trope (ford did NAWT fall harder 😭)#im all for one sided billford #and the art is so yummy for these two #so...#oh and btw fiddauthor is a tad strange #like the idea of ford and fidd reconnecting & maybe being lovers in old age after the events of weirdmaggedon is fine #but i highly doubt that fidd would've cheated on his wife or abandoned his kid for ford #sure he fucked up in other ways when it came to his family and the subtext and implications of feelings may be there #but still...he was married #and even if he loved ford more #fidd doesnt come off like the kind of person to do that #and bro is NAWT pulling 💀#he is the equivalent of a sopping wet dog /pos #anyways #theres my 2 cents on the shipping stuff in gravity falls currently #yeah.#gravity falls

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ganondoodle · 7 months ago

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sometimes i wish i was one of those artist that make people go "this is a PAINTING???" or "with WHAT programm/medium???" but its just not what i can do or find fun :/

#ganondoodles talks #personal #not really for the attention thing but more for .. work being recognized?#im not sure #to feel more like people actually stop and look at sth instead of skipping over it?#maybe its jsut an internet phenomena(?)#like the way everything is just consumed within seconds and never lasts long and if you miss the trend you are irrelevant #the sort of weird pressure to have to subvert expectations or be exceptionally exceptional just to be recognized ?#(which i know isnt always a good thing lol)#also this isnt a complaint per se more like a thought #like i sometimes wish i was into the popular characters instead of the niche ones etc #that kind of thing #also like i wish i could make art that really speaks to people .. like those that are just so .. interesting and strange and poetic #bc (while i know fanart and silly oc projects arent worhtless) those feel more worthwhile? more worth really being called art?#for soemthing to be truly art it should be either exceptionally skilled or profound like the greatest poets?#im just doing whatever my brain allows me to do- which i know is fine #but i also dont think its inherently wrong to wish for being more than that sometimes #(... maybe its mostly just loneliness without knowing how to find friends)#(especially where i am and especially as i just want a friend to live with - not a partner... i dont want to be this alone forever ...)#(actually ....... what if all my art self consciousness comes from wanting to feel less lonely .. oh dear- no time to unpack that omg)

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smallidarityfan · 9 months ago

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sigh....... smallidarity crumbs.....

(I MISS THEM SO MUCH)

#was watching Jimmy's stream today and there was the off mention where Jimmy says #“wish he had all the time for me 😢 all the time for me 😭”#GET JOEL OFF THAT SERVER FOR 2 SECONDS PLEASE 😭😭😭😭 /JOKING hermitcraft is his hermitcrab shell. dont want to disturb the ecosystem yk #in my head im pacing around in circles like that one twilight sparkle scene where the ground starts eroding from her steps #MY WITHDRAWAL SYNDROMES....#/lh btw im fine i'll just work on my many wips.... making the content up myself.... yeah....#i understood that burden when i made this account... to graduate smallidarity from rarepair to semi-rarepair... with my bare hands alone..#previously being a desert duo main from twitter really spoilt me tbh 😭😭 smallidarity's barely even that rare of a rarepair #well. they are still criminally underrated compared to other ships (and duos in general actually). so i guess a rarepair in the community #but thriving in the actual content we get #tbh just like stresskall and xbralis #let best friends to lovers be more mainstream please . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

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rattusrattus3 · 28 days ago

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#hey if you notice a mistake in a video #and the vid is like a month old #and that video has like over 40 k views #before commenting about the mistake #would you maybe consider one of the other many people who has watched it #has already pointed it out #and if you look in the comments #you will notice a pile of the comments pointing it out !#so adding your own two cents about the mistake is like ! unnecessary it’s already been done !!!!#this is so dumb but I keep getting comments about the backstitch lever on the sewing machine #and it’s like I KNOW NOW IM SORRY OK #no need for 50+ comments about it #it’s fine it’s fine I’m being annoying #but usually when I watch an older vid with a mistake I assume the uploader has already had it pointed out #and doesn’t need another reminder about it and the fact they can’t fix it #that and the STOP SEWING OVER PINS comment like I get it I get it we have different ways of doing stuff leave me alone #I mentioned it’s not a good idea and you can mess up your machine its just what I do sometimes #rabbit rambles #personal #sorry it’s time for the daily post of rabbit being annoyed by shit that Does Not Matter #but ranting into the void (ie Tumblr notes) helps get it off my head #and feel better #so here we are #feel free to block the tag rabbit rambles if you hate these #anyway

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martyrbat · 1 year ago

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harley quinn (2000) #35

[ID: a sequence of three panels focusing on an abandoned cup of tea as drops of blood drip down into it. Harley Quinn's internal narration boxes reads, ‘I was a tomboy growing up. Tackle football with the local boys? You bet. Under a car hood changing a filter? Sure. Dances? No. Pedicures? Pass. Sewing? You have to be kidding.’ The panels expand, revealing Harley hunched over. She's shown in a profile view and from afar, her face hidden by shadow as her blonde hair is in a slightly overgrown pixie cut.

The blood continues to drip as her narration resumes, ‘I remember watching my mother. Sewing. Sitting in this old chair with a pile of clothes my dad or brother needed fixing. A rip, a tear, a patch. Just kept a smile on her face as that pile got higher and higher. I resented her so much. Sewing. I vowed I'd never learn.’ Her hand comes onto panel, revealing she's holding a needle as she yelps, ‘Ow!’ We finally see her bloodied face when she looks up at the suddenly ringing phone, it being revealed that she had to give herself sutures to close a large gash on her forehead. END ID]

#i think thats a cup of tea?? it looks like it with the sugar cubes? maybe. its not the point #love love love this little sequence and when her character and background is expanded on #i disagree with some of the choices (like her sleeping with & blackmailing the dean to get into a college)#but im a sucker for messy homelife and having that filled out more. her own personal resentment to her mother for doing the needlework #and being a housewife with a (forced?) smile and how it plays out to harley wanting to be so fiercely independent but how she #still struggles with it. from staying with the joker and that toxic relationship and the way its different than her mother's yet is #repeating the same cycle just with different mistakes #to her and pam and wanting and begging her to go with her. to being scared of being alone in a sense #she can manage fine. shes smart shes strong shes clever. but the abandonment issues run deep #how much is she aware of? how much does she resent herself for it? telling yourself as a little girl over and over you wont be like #your mother just to find out youre her if not worse?#again. repeating the cycle just with different mistakes.#also love when women are cringefailures and damp and pathetic looking #c: harley quinn (2000) | i: 35 #crypt's panels #harley quinn

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ecos-syscourse · 1 month ago

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Nevermind fuck the post

DO NOT TALK TO ME ABOUT DIA.

I DO NOT WANT TO SEE ANYBODY TALKING ABOUT DIA.

IF YOU ASK ME ABOUT IT WE WILL BLOCK YOU.

WE ARE NOT GOING TO EXPLAIN TO YOU WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED IF YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE. YOU WILL GET BLOCKED.

OH AND TO *YOU SPECIFICALLY*, THE FACT THAT I STOPPED BEING YOUR FAN BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU SAID WHILE EVERYTHING WAS GOING ON WITH DIA HAS NOTHING TO FUCKING DO WITH WHY YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE. START LEARNING THAT PEOPLE WILL HOLD YOU ACCOUNTABLE FOR YOUR ACTIONS BECAUSE YOUR ACTIONS ARE TERRIBLE AND YOU DON'T CARE. IT DOESN'T TAKE A GRUDGE TO RECOGNIZE WHEN SOMETHING IS RIGHT OR WRONG.

WE DO NOT KNOW DIA. AND THAT DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING. WE ARE JUST A PERSON ON THE INTERNET WITH A BASIC SET OF ACTUAL FUCKING MORALITY.

DO NOT BRING UP DIA NEAR US, OR EVEN TRY TO ARGUE WE WERE IN THE WRONG FOR HELPING SOMEBODY IN A MANIC EPISODE YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES.

FUCK OFF!!!

#syscourse #WHEN ARE THESE MEDS GOING TO KICK IN!!!!#I MIGJT TAKE ANOTHER FUCKJNG PILL FJDORDK #I HATE YOU #edit before posting: meds hopefully will kick in within 5 min but we can take another pill bc our doctor said thats fine 👍#hopefully it won't be anything like last time where it was that amount of dose in one pill because that sucked!! a lot #tw caps #tw angry post #tw angry #?#this is kind of venty ig.#tw vent #idfk.#sorry for ranting im just so tired of this shit.#leave dia the fuck alone #it is recovering and it will recover.#and then you will just still suck. i think its time you recover from being an asshole

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bruiisedfawn · 3 months ago

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˙ . ꒷ 🍰 . 𖦹˙—

#im currently at my sister's place. she wanted me to take care of our dog while she and my mom goes home to sort through their stuff #i have a very unpleasant headache after waking up early after no sleep. walking to the psychiatric for an appt. then having minor issues to #get here bc the train tracks were... smth?? and the train was late and idk. it ended up being painless to get here #then i went to buy groceries and then took the bus here. since i've been here once it is easier for me to navigate skskks #now im here and im happy to be with my dog :3 i havent seen him for an entire month :(((((#but it feels weird to be all alone.... i dont like it actually :// i mean if i didnt have my dog here it would be AWFUL #i dreaded a bit to take my dog outside bc she lives on the third floor and he cant walk down the narrow stairs. so i have touse the elevator #but that went fine!! its still not as easy as just opening the door and then go straight outside tho T-T!!!!#idk. i realize that im just.. a person who dont like change. i have lived in the same place my ENTIRE life. i havent moved once.#and even if it isnt as nice anymore bc um literally thousands of ppl have moved in the past couple of years... it isnt as calm at all anymor #BUT. i fkn love the environment and scenery. there are so many beautiful and pleasant places to walk. and sit. i just love and need to walk #i know every road and walkaway there.. i know which trails are calmer and nicer etc. we have parks and forests and all that #here is like just housing areas. like apartments and houses and stores and schools. and roads. roads everywhere... cant find a path without #a road next to it ://// it isnt calm at all bc there are always cars :( and um idk how im supposed to go for walks when there arent anywhere #to go. so yeah what im saying is that even if the place i live has gotten worse.. i still feel. like thats my home.#idk how to live anywhere else. and to think this might be the year i HAVE to move. i .. dont know how to adapt and settle into another place #i LOVE where i live. i love how its built and the neighborhoods and everything. i feel so so attached to that place. i know this is life etc #but since i have lived there my entire life and just now being away from it in a place that has 10% of what my home has im like.#idk it feels really bad and im just not into life at all rn. i wanna live in a place i like and just rot into it. never leave.#i dont like change... im realllyyyy homesick rn T-T esp being alone without my family sucksssss i hate it

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